10.08.2013

cliff diving

I've been doing a lot of 'cliff diving' lately.
I've also been inspired by seeing some people around me do some 'cliff diving' of their own. 
You know that kind of diving...standing on the edge of challenges, both physical and energetic in nature, mustering up the motivation to take the plunge into self-growth.
Sometimes I just want to stomp my foot, pull the 'pout', and demand that the challenges alter for me instead of me having to alter for them.  Too bad that's not possible!  Womp womp.....

Reality is that I'm thankful for the moments I'm forced to the edge.
I'm thankful for being privy to other peoples' edges.
The edge is the place to be in order to keep feeling truly alive. 
The edge clarifies what's important.
The edge pushes against stagnancy.
The edge is just another opportunity.

There is no denying that CrossFit has shaped the "older" me.
Because CrossFit creates a new 'edge' every day, it's taught me to live a bolder life than I ever thought I would, both physically and energetically.  It's taught me to feel "comfortable being uncomfortable".  This also means, of course, that I'm always aware when I am trying to shore up that edge so I don't have to take the dive into the challenge....enter the foot stomp and subsequent 'pout'. 

There's no hiding from oneself unless you believe in giving up.  And there is no giving up in CrossFit.  You see that damn workout through.  You may dial yourself back a little, you may take a little longer to reach your edge, but if you want the most out of your workout/your life, you continue to muster the motivation to see each challenge through.  Face it down and you have added strength to be open to the next challenge.  Teeter on the edge of it and you're forever stuck in that frustrating place of feeling 'safe' but incomplete. 

Watching others dive off a cliff is a great reminder that some dives are graceful and some are belly flops, but they have mustered the motivation to take the dive.  I may stomp and pout once in a while, but all that does is make the edge crumble so I am forced off the cliff!  Whether a "10" or belly flop, the important thing is to take the dive to feel complete.